I'd love to say that the mind bending weight loss continues and I've reached my goal weight today, but even that might be a bit aggressive. 40 lbs in 3 days? Anyone know a good surgeon? My left leg has got to be at least that. Besides, hopping is good exercise. I'm down to 203.6 lbs so I'm still heading the right way. Wedding is a little over two weeks away. I can break 200 by then. Hell, 3 fiber muffins I could do it in a few hours. I know. Gross.
So today is a personal growth day. And since this journey is about much more than just weight loss, I think I can call it a success. This blog (and my others) are really giving me an outlet. A place to open up and just say things. Almost like an online diary, or a shrink. But unlike those two options I'm forced to not only face my issues privately, but publicly as well. That forces me to really face some things in their entirety. Not that I don't have boundaries that I haven't breached...or may never breach. But a part of personal growth (for me) is about ownership of these things. I liken it to carrying the lesson, not the guilt. "Old" Jim was way to focused on carrying the burden. Almost like I felt I needed to be punished for my failures. But the problem I'm learning is that eventually the burden crushes you. But setting aside the weight doesn't lessen the profundity of the lesson, it just makes it tolerable in the face of life in general. So what I'm learning to do is accept the faults of the past, carry the feeling and the lesson, and stop letting it dominate my perceptions of the future. So when days like today come along, and something hits me, it's important for me to face it head on, and you my dear readers are a crucial part of me coming to grips with it. And all without a $35 co-pay. How sweet of you all.
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